Thursday, May 11, 2006
, 9:04 PM
Work was alright today, lol I've been feeling uber sleepy lately esp after lunch hours. We take some pics today with our HPs cuz Ziqin is leaving. I gave my word to Shirl that I'm gonna quit come mid-June. Can I keep my promise? *doubtful* The desire to play is so so so intense! I envy Ziqin now! Haha. Today's the 4th day since we discovered Mum has HSP (Henoch-Schonlein purpura), the doc says ithe root cause is a previous viral ifection, so now her cells are attacking the immune system in response to the virus. The doc says there's a slight chance that patients with HSP may have kidney problems. But I know damn sure that Mum will be just fine. She's been really really worried that it may be the serious case of HSP, so all of us have been keeping her busy, taking her mind off her worries. She actually said" I'm not afraid of death. I just don't want to be a burden."It really hurts me so much to listen to these words. I didn't want to tell anyone, I just want to live life as per normal, like Mum didn't have this illness at all. It's hard to put a brave front at work, with friends. But I didn't want to tell anyone, I didn't want to break down, I didn't want to be weak. Mum's gonna have her blood test tomorrow, all of us are praying that the results are encouraging, tomorrow's Vesak Day so I hope that helps. Please don't let anything happen to her. Heck. Please let her have a Happy Mother's Day. I think(hope) it's nothing, I went to google HSP and 90% of the prognosis is good. Mum will be fine. I don't even want/dare to recall that very day we discovered spots on her legs, it was simply disconcerting. Please God let Mum get well soon! Thankfully, she's still her bubbly self, though I guess inside she's prolly just as scared if not even more afraid than any of us. My sis and I went to shop for Mummy's Day gifts, we decided on a white handbag( cuz Mum loves bags), an ang pow from me( to get rid of all the bad luck) and this charm keychain thingy that wards off bad luck and keep her healthy and disease-free. I think my parents are the most loving couple I'd ever known even with certain obstacles.
